Just a reminder that the next Adoption Journey Blog Carnival is coming up. It will be posted on March 1, 2008. I would love to include your posts and blogs if you would like. To make it very easy to submit a post all you have to do is click
here. You just fill out the form and you are entered in the carnival. I already have quite a few new participants so make sure to join in on the fun!
Friday, February 22, 2008
Sunday, February 17, 2008
Doing Better
Well Miss S is doing much better! Her blood pressure has gone back to a normal range so the medicine and bedrest is working. She is a great sport and is just hanging in there. I'm sure the bedrest is no fun. Since she is doing better the doctor would like to have her carry closer to her due date which is March 11th.
So at this point she is scheduled for a c-section on March 5th. If she has anymore complications it could be earlier but for the time being that is the set birthday. I'm thinking March 5th sounds like a good day to be born... I'm still not planning on going to the hospital until the paperwork is signed. But I'm also still praying for God to guide me through this and sometimes his plans are different then mine. So we will just see what happens.
So at this point she is scheduled for a c-section on March 5th. If she has anymore complications it could be earlier but for the time being that is the set birthday. I'm thinking March 5th sounds like a good day to be born... I'm still not planning on going to the hospital until the paperwork is signed. But I'm also still praying for God to guide me through this and sometimes his plans are different then mine. So we will just see what happens.
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Congrats!!!
I have to send a huge congrats out to Bethany and Jeff! Bethany and Jeff just received news that they are ready to travel to Ethiopia to pick up their little boy Leul. I'm so excited for them! Bethany and Jeff have been big supporters of me and we have followed one another's adoption journeys for quite some time now. I know that Bethany will always leave me a comment to cheer me up when I'm down and will celebrate with me when I'm happy. So I want to make sure that we all celebrate with them as they prepare to bring their boy home!!! I can't wait to see a picture of them holding their little guy. So congrats and get to packing friends!
Thursday, February 7, 2008
Not According To Plan
Today did not go quite according to plan. I was supposed to meet Miss S for lunch today and to just visit. She had wanted to meet with me alone without all of her family present. She was also supposed to have a sonogram today. But I wasn't going to the sonogram. Because I'm being smart this time, I'm protecting my heart this time, I'm not seeing a baby until she is mine this time. That was the plan right!
Well I got to lunch and Miss S wasn't feeling well. And she continued to feel worse and worse until it was obvious that she wasn't okay and she needed to go to the hospital. So I took her and of course I couldn't get ahold of her family. So we got to the hospital and they checked her blood pressure and it was really high, 170/120. That's not good. And they couldn't get it down. So they decided they needed to do a sonogram to see how big the baby was in case they needed to deliver.
She was scared and didn't want to be alone and I didn't want to leave her. So the next thing I know I'm staring at this precious little girl on a tv screen that is moving and kicking like crazy. I could see her little nose and mouth. I could see her sucking her thumb and moving her feet. I could see little tufts of hair on her head and I could see that heart beating so strong and fast. And I felt my heart grow. This wasn't the plan!
So after many tests and much debate the doctor decided to admit Miss S. The baby is only 4 1/2 pounds so they would like her to be able to carry her awhile longer. But they are going to observe her tonight and make a decision tomorrow or Saturday. The most important thing is trying to get the blood pressure down. So Miss S will stay at the hospital until they feel like it's safe for her to go home or until after the baby is born.
So the day didn't go according to my plans. But they went according to God's plan. The turn of events gave Miss S and I some bonding time. We were able to hang out and play cards and play 20 questions and goof around together. We were able to talk about what adoption means to us and what we want the future to look like. And we were able to build a little trust in one another. I think she realized that I'm not going to freak out when it gets tough, I'm going to support her, and I'm going to root for her and this baby girl. And I realized how dedicated she is to this little girl and her well being. I realized how thoughtful and tough and spirited she is. And I realized that if I just go with the flow God will take care of the rest.
I don't know how the rest of this will play out but I can tell you one thing.... I'm not making anymore plans!
Well I got to lunch and Miss S wasn't feeling well. And she continued to feel worse and worse until it was obvious that she wasn't okay and she needed to go to the hospital. So I took her and of course I couldn't get ahold of her family. So we got to the hospital and they checked her blood pressure and it was really high, 170/120. That's not good. And they couldn't get it down. So they decided they needed to do a sonogram to see how big the baby was in case they needed to deliver.
She was scared and didn't want to be alone and I didn't want to leave her. So the next thing I know I'm staring at this precious little girl on a tv screen that is moving and kicking like crazy. I could see her little nose and mouth. I could see her sucking her thumb and moving her feet. I could see little tufts of hair on her head and I could see that heart beating so strong and fast. And I felt my heart grow. This wasn't the plan!
So after many tests and much debate the doctor decided to admit Miss S. The baby is only 4 1/2 pounds so they would like her to be able to carry her awhile longer. But they are going to observe her tonight and make a decision tomorrow or Saturday. The most important thing is trying to get the blood pressure down. So Miss S will stay at the hospital until they feel like it's safe for her to go home or until after the baby is born.
So the day didn't go according to my plans. But they went according to God's plan. The turn of events gave Miss S and I some bonding time. We were able to hang out and play cards and play 20 questions and goof around together. We were able to talk about what adoption means to us and what we want the future to look like. And we were able to build a little trust in one another. I think she realized that I'm not going to freak out when it gets tough, I'm going to support her, and I'm going to root for her and this baby girl. And I realized how dedicated she is to this little girl and her well being. I realized how thoughtful and tough and spirited she is. And I realized that if I just go with the flow God will take care of the rest.
I don't know how the rest of this will play out but I can tell you one thing.... I'm not making anymore plans!
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
Update
Thanks to Orange Girl for posting on my previous post with some advice about the horrible blog I found. Orange Girl stated that this issue had been discussed on a yahoo group and the best way to handle it is to report it to the center for missing and exploited children. There is a form that I filled out on that site and you can fill out too. To get to the form simply click here. Maybe if enough of us complain they can force the people that created this site to take it down. I really do think that this site is a horrible joke. I say that because after reading the profiles and the information page it seems really fake. However, if by some off chance this is real it's our job to try and step in. Hopefully the site will disappear soon!
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
Shame On Them!
I stumbled upon this site today and I am horrified! I think this site is someone's idea of sick humor but it's really not funny. I am known for having a really sick sense of humor and even I wasn't the slightest bit impressed. Adoption is such a personal and difficult journey for many people. And organ donation and the need for a transplant is also a difficult and personal journey. To combine the two in such a way is insensitive and ridiculous. I don't know who is behind this site and why they would think it was funny but shame on them!
Monday, February 4, 2008
Is The Third Time A Charm?
For the blog carnival I included a post at my other blog about being rematched with another expectant family. The expectant mom, Miss S, is due on March 11th with a baby girl. The other two failed matches I've had have been boys. So I'm wondering now if I'm suppose to have a little girl and if maybe just maybe the third match will really be the final match.
I'm nervous and hestitant to get excited. I'm going very slow with this match. I won't be participating in the doctor's appointments or sonogram this time around. And I won't be at the hospital for the birth. I've decided that I will wait until the relinquishment paperwork is signed before I go to the hospital. Miss S seems to understand that and is fine with my decision in regards to that.
I still want an open adoption after the fact. I just don't want to get attached again and have another failure. I know if this situation falls through I will still be disappointed but at least I won't have a little face stuck in my head like all the others. I don't know if that makes any sense but I just can't do the hospital thing again. It's too hard and emotionally draining.
So I wait... I'm getting used to that part!
I'm nervous and hestitant to get excited. I'm going very slow with this match. I won't be participating in the doctor's appointments or sonogram this time around. And I won't be at the hospital for the birth. I've decided that I will wait until the relinquishment paperwork is signed before I go to the hospital. Miss S seems to understand that and is fine with my decision in regards to that.
I still want an open adoption after the fact. I just don't want to get attached again and have another failure. I know if this situation falls through I will still be disappointed but at least I won't have a little face stuck in my head like all the others. I don't know if that makes any sense but I just can't do the hospital thing again. It's too hard and emotionally draining.
So I wait... I'm getting used to that part!
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