How Can That Be

How is it possible that this cute little baby can cause such an uproar. How can this little bit of adorable baby cry for 6 hours straight. How can this sweet sweet boy have two blow outs in that many hours, pee on the carpet and me and the curtains. How can my lovely little doll of a baby spit up down my shirt coating my boobs in stinky formula. How can this be? And why does no one tell you that some days last more than 24 hours and that asking for help can feel so hard?

But I did admit defeat and sent this adorable little boy to visit his aunt Amanda and uncle Shawn today so Mommy could take a nap. I felt guilty for a little bit but after taking a shower that lasted longer than 3 minutes and taking a nap that lasted longer than 2 hours I quit feeling guilty. I should have done the same thing last week!

Pictures, Pictures, Pictures

Okay Sylas and I went and got professional pictures done! It was a really fun experience. In fact today I got the link for the pictures and saw them all. I knew we had some cute ones but seriously. My kid is cute! You can see for yourself by clicking here! Let me know if you have a favorite. I'm having a hard time picking which ones I like the best.

It was so weird when I got the link from Seresa to view the pics for the first time. I got really emotional looking at them. I have waited and waited for this little guy and now here he is. Here we are. In real pictures. Pictures mean a lot to me. They always have and for some reason now his pictures really do. It just makes it more real. When I see the ones of us my heart just swells. This is my son, my baby, my heart living in the outside world. CRAZY!!!

Also as soon as I saw how cute they were my first thought was I have to call my mom. That used to happen to me quite a bit now that Sylas is here it happens several times a day. So often I want to call her and tell her all about him. I wish I could. Lord I miss her! But I know that she knows him. I know that she protects him and loves him. In fact I really do believe that she helped God get him to me. She told me before she died that she would send a pretty baby my way. She did her job. He is a beautiful boy. And I'm going to do everything I can to let him know about his beautiful Grandma Dee.

So that's a picture of us and a picture of me in my emotional new mommy missing her mommy state.

Blog Carnival and Other Stuff

Just a reminder that the Adoption Journey Blog Carnival is coming up soon. The carnival will be posted on the 1st of May. So if you would like to participate this month please submit your post here.

Sylas is doing great! We had a baby shower on Friday hosted by the folks at my office. We ended up with some really wonderful things. Some things we really needed, some things that are really fun, and lots of cute, cute, cute clothes. This boy will be well dressed!

Tomorrow we are going to have professional pictures done. I usually take my friends baby pictures, maternity pictures, etc. But it's pretty hard to do a family portrait of yourself. And I really want some nice photos of him as a newborn. So it should be fun. I can't wait to see how he does.

I am having a hard time keeping both blogs updated regularly. So if I ever go awhile without posting here feel free to visit my other blog Picture of my world.

Here are some new pics...

Cool Find

I have always taken lots of pictures. In fact before Sylas came along I usually took about a hundred pictures a week. Now with Sylas here I would say that has more than doubled. I take tons of pictures! I used to scrapbook but I just don't have time for that anymore. I ran out of time before a baby and now I really don't have time. But I found a really cool solution that I just have to share with you.

It's called How Fast They Grow. This concept is amazing. It's a wonderful digital scrapbooking site. You can easily create really beautiful scrapbook pages online and then you purchase them. They send them to you and you slide them into the book. Wonderful looking and really fast!!! How cool is that. So if you have time check it out. I promise you will love it.

Jessie

Big Weekend

We had a big and busy weekend. Sylas and I went to visit his first family on Saturday. They live about two hours from us. We went and Katie's aunts cooked a large meal for us and then they hosted a little baby shower. It was such a wonderful time! They really made Sylas and I feel welcomed and loved. I never would have dreamed that we would have such a comfortable relationship but we do. I feel like we have another kind of extended family. It really is a blessing. Sylas could never have too many people to love him and I could never have too many people offerring support and friendship. We really are blessed!

Katie, his first mom is doing well. She is still struggling emotionally which is too be expected. But she is reaching out to her social worker, family and friends. She also feels comfortable talking to me about her feelings which I really appreciate. While Katie may be struggling some emotionally she is doing great physically. She looked so beautiful on Saturday! She has already lost 45 pounds and says she is feeling good. I'm so thankful for that.

So here are some fun pics of the weekend.

Sylas and his beautiful Katie!


Sylas with his biological sister Amara. I think they look a lot alike.


And my very adored boy! I just love him!!!

April Adoption Journey Blog Carnival

This month the adoption journey blog carnival is a little late. Okay lets get real it is four days late! Sorry about that. I am just going to blame it on mommy brain. I forget to do lots of things now. Without further ado here are the participants for this month. Please visit one another and consider participating in next months carnival!

Joanne presents Transracial Adoption posted at Adoption Support at Forever Parents.

Maureen presents An Exploration of My Adoption posted at Korean

:: Suzanne :: presents 18 months in posted at :: Adventures in Daily Living ::. Diary.

Dawn Davenport presents Tales from a Blended Family: Jalapeños and Duct Tape posted at Finding Your Child & Creating a Family.

Shrijnana presents A year ago today - the first meeting posted at Conscious Mom.

Melanie Love presents Thank you, Uncle S.... posted at Our Journey to Parenthood.

That concludes this edition of the adoption journey blog carnival. Please submit your blog posts for the next carnival by clicking here. Thanks for participating and visiting the adoption journey blog carnival.

Busy Times

Sylas sure keeps me busy and happy! He is such a good little boy. He loves it when I sing which is so crazy because I have a horrible voice! And what is really weird is that I know very few children's songs. So I sing Jesus Loves Me a lot. And then I change the words up to do Mommy Loves Me, Grandma Loves Me, and Aunt Heather Loves Me. Then because I can't sing that all day I sing the only other songs I know all the words too. Those would include the Star Spangled Banner, God Bless America, and Amazing Grace. I can also sing the Alphabet. So if all else fails Sylas will know he is loved, he will be patriotic, and he will know his ABC's. At this point that's as good as it gets.