Baby Boy

I went to Louisiana to meet Miss N in person and attend her sonogram. First she is wonderful! She is really a kind, funny, beautiful, and generous gal. We really had a great time hanging out and just talking. We laughed a lot and talked about a lot of things. She is a person if I just happened to meet somewhere I would want to be her friend so it made it very easy.

Her doctors appointment went great and the sonogram was AWESOME! I've seen sonograms before but never a sonogram of my baby so it was a whole different ballgame. She didn't want me to cry but as soon as I saw his little heart beating I couldn't hold back the tears. He is real and I feel in love with him at first sight. Oh and yes he is a BOY! I'm thrilled about that. He looks healthy and is already weighing 6 lbs and 4 oz. So he will be a big boy. Even though he isn't due until the 23rd the doctor is thinking that he may make an arrival around the 9th or 10th. The doc doesn't want him to get to much over 8lbs.

So the trip was wonderful, Miss N is wonderful and I'm feeling wonderful about all this. Meeting Miss N eased a lot of my concerns and according to her it eased a lot of her concerns too. As I was leaving to go to the airport she asked me if I was going to change my mind. That cracked me up. I pray that she won't change her mind and she is worried about me changing mine. She said that she was afraid I wouldn't like her and then wouldn't want the baby. I reassured her that I really like her and that I love the baby and their is no way I will change my mind. She seemed relieved. :-)

Louisiana Here I Come

Miss N is having a sonogram on the 27th and she has asked me to come with her. So I lucked out and was able to get a plane ticket that didn't cost a fortune. I will be flying to Louisiana on the 26th and coming back home on the 28th. Not much time there but long enough to have a little time with N and attend the doctors appointment. I'm excited about that.

Today when we talked on the phone we talked about names. She and I like very different types of names. That may be difficult. Ultimately I can pick whatever name I want but I would really like to find a name that we both are comfortable with and combines a little bit of all of us. So I'm breaking out the big name book to take on the plane with me. Maybe that will give me enough time to find the right name....

35 Days

Only 35 days until the baby is due. That is amazing to me. Only 35 days and this little person will enter such a big big world. And God willing that little person will know me as his or her mom! I've been talking with Miss N and I adore her. She is such a strong, funny, loving person. She reminds me a lot of myself at her age. Focused yet still a little lost. I'm so grateful I've been giving the opportunity to get to build a relationship with her. Now I can't imagine adopting any other way.

I've been working like crazy to get things in order around the house. Heather and I have cleared out the spare bedroom and we are breaking out the paint tonight. Our goal is to have it painted and decorated this weekend. Then we have to figure out how to get all that baby furniture put together. YIKES! Everything is falling into place.

Good Day

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Well "the expectant mother considering adoption" or Miss N as I will call her from now on has chosen me to parent her child! I couldn't be more thrilled. She is a really a phenomenal gal and I'm so excited to move forward and get to know her better. I'm also thrilled to become a mom! I had to lay my head down on the kitchen table and cry when they told me she wanted to move forward with the adoption plan. I'm gonna be a mom! That is so overwhelming to me!!! I'm gonna be a mom!

I forgot to tell you all that the expected due date is July 23rd! Just around the corner!!!

Conference Call

I just talked to my social worker and I'm scheduled to have a conference call with her and the birth mom at 1:30 today. I'm so stinking nervous! I've been nervous before but nothing like this!!! It's crazy. My stomach is churning and my heart is racing. And I still have two hours to wait. I do have a list of questions to ask her and I know she has a list of questions for me. Hopefully that will help me. If I get to nervous I can just revert back to the list. Good plan right!

Wish me luck.... No just wish me blessings...

New Opportunity

Well it's been a good week in adoption land. My profile is up on the web. I finished up all my education stuff and parenting plan so that is awesome! And most of all I got a call tonight about a possible adoption situation. The agency is presenting my information to a birthmom tomorrow and if she likes that then we will schedule a conference call. So things are moving along. God has a plan and it's starting to unfold!

Jessie

On The Web

Well it's been an odd couple days. I got so excited about the call I got and now I'm let down. The agency that was representing the birthmom doesn't work with singles so that match won't be happening. But I'm confident that the baby for me is out there! God knows the beginning and the end and I have faith that he will pick a better ending to this story than I ever could. So I push forward.

To get my profile out for more birthfamilies to see I'm now on the agency website. You can click here to see it! So if you know anyone that is interested in making an adoption plan for their baby you can send them that way!

Jessie